Yet why am I so blind?


A few years back I heard an interview with the Gibb brothers about the origins for the lyrics to the song Holiday. Searching the internet I could not find any mention of it, but if I recall correctly they said there was no particular meaning to the words- they just tried to make the song “work”. Well work it does, part of the allure of this haunting and cryptic song is that it seems to demand a serious, maybe even a dire interpretation that belies its title.

So what in the world does a puzzling Bee Gees song have to do with addiction and recovery? You’ll have to click “Read more” to find out…

It is because I felt the same way about my alcoholism. Many a sleepless night I struggled with trying to place some deeper meaning to my plight. Surely there must have been some cosmic plot behind my pain and suffering, my drinking had to be just a symptom of a much greater calamity. And I got caught up in the conspiracy and contortions, making sure that no simple plan such as treatment or abstinence had a chance as being considered a solution. There had to be more?

But there wasn’t. Addiction is a disease of the mind as well as the body, and this was its way of twisting my thoughts so that it could “work”.

Those that have never experienced in person or vicariously in disappointment and frustration through a loved one will never understand this part of the disease, why it is so hard to “just quit drinking”. This kind of gives credence to the following lyrics, “millions of eyes can see, but why I am I so blind” doesn’t it?

If you are still trying to figure out the words to your own song of addiction, I have some advice. Stop. Try working on the solution instead and take a holiday from addiction.

I once heard a spiritual teacher in a discussion with someone who was going on and on about his "work" on his drinking.He had gotten "opinions" from people he knew about his drinking, who didn't see a problem. These people were most likely people who got drunk with him and/or enabled him. he had conducted a meticulous analysis of how much, when and where, what triggered him, etc. He wanted to know if he had looked at the issue from all aspects. It seemed as if he was looking for support that his drinking was understandable and not really a problem. She simply said one sentence to him, "You have to get down off the bar stool and walk away." He couldn't come up with a response. I pray that he was helped by what she said and stopped.

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